Dealing with Anxiety — March 23, 2017

Dealing with Anxiety

I’m sure we’ve all been anxious and over emotional about things before, I know I sure have. Lately I’ve been feeling extremely anxious, stressed out, and not really sure what is going on with my life. Let me explain…

I feel like my life is at a complete standstill. I go to work to pay my bills and I occasionally go out and have fun. I feel like I’m in a rut and I don’t know how to combat it. I also have been struggling with everything with Tyler and what happened between us. When I think that I’m doing okay and getting past the hurt, I break down and cry. I know this is normal but it completely crushes me.

I want my life back. I miss everything. Living at home I’m struggling with, I miss having my own house that’s completely mine. I miss having someone to come home to every day. I miss feeling loved.

I’m not sure if this is all hitting me because my birthday is next week or what, but this isn’t how I pictured starting 25.

How I’m dealing with it is crying and talking to my best friends. Believe it or not, Zach has given me some of the best advice and I can’t thank him enough. He told me last night “You worked your ass off to become a nurse and guess what dumbass you’re a nurse! You don’t need a relationship to be happy, I hope you know that. Love yourself and the rest will fall into place.” Seriously, what guy says that?! He’s honestly the best but I’ll never tell him that to his face :p.

What he said though is the truth. Everyone needs to love themselves before they can let someone else in to love them. Try as we might we need to accept this for what it is. When we finally love ourselves the rest doesn’t matter.

Take a deep breath in and let it out. Let the anxiety drift away and know that in the end it’s going to all work out.

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Music is Healing — March 19, 2017

Music is Healing

Have you ever had a song or a band that puts everything into perspective for you? Something that you can listen to over and over, never get sick of, and somehow it/they always find a way to hit home with you? That’s how Florida Georgia Line is for me.

Last weekend I went to their concert at the casino. This was my 3rd time seeing them and you would think that I would be sick of them by now, right? WRONG! I could see the same show 10 different times and I think the music would effect me just as much. I love that they have songs that are upbeat and get you moving, songs that get you thinking, and songs that give you hope.

As much of a super fan as I would like to consider myself, I haven’t had the chance to really listen to their new album until recently. I don’t know if I was worried it wouldn’t be as good or what but I finally bit the bullet when I was having a really down day and listened to it all. Let me tell you, their music always does it. They have a song called “Music is Healing” and it does exactly that. I don’t know what it is about the song but I always have so much hope when I listen to it. Hope that I’m going to figure things out, hope that everything that’s happened isn’t going to be what defines me, hope that things will change. The first time the song honestly brought me to tears. Maybe I was just being over emotional but I really think it was something more than that.

Anyways, I wanted to ease myself back into blogging. I know its been awhile but life tends to get in the way.

Let me know what songs or bands get you going. Also, let me know what you want me to write about. Sometimes I have stuff, sometimes not so much.