My Tinder Date Moved Across the Country: Story Time — April 8, 2017

My Tinder Date Moved Across the Country: Story Time

I’m back with another story time and this one is one for the books. I went on my first “Tinder Date” on March 16th and it has its ups and downs to say the least. Let me start from the beginning.

I began talking to Ryan earlier that week. We hit it off right quickly and it seemed like we just clicked. I found myself constantly checking my phone to see if he texted me and we were up all hours of the night talking. I obviously wouldn’t say I was in love or anything to that extreme but I genuinely liked him (and how hot he was didn’t hurt either). We talked about our pasts, where we want to go in life, and our career choices. I found out early on that he was in Submarine school down by the shore. I love a guy in uniform! We kept talking until one of my days off I decided to take a road trip down to the beach (in March…) to clear my head. He just so happened to get out of class that night and not have any plans so we decided to meet up.

He had mentioned earlier through text that he was in his last week of Submarine school and would be leaving CT really soon. I didn’t think much of this when he told me since I figured I either wouldn’t meet him or if I did it wouldn’t be anything. So I decided to meet him, and it was the best decision I ever made. We hit it off, there were no awkward moments (although we both admit that we’re extremely awkward so that could be why), and we had a great time. He was the perfect gentlemen, sexy as ever, and that accent!!! We stayed out late that night and when it was time to leave I didn’t want to. Again, not in love but definitely liked him. We kept talking, and talking, and talking. We wanted to get together again before he went back to Maryland before going to his next base but it never worked out. We kept talking every single day though.

Finally his graduation came and went and before I knew it he sent me a snap saying he was heading out of CT. To tell you the truth I was pretty sad. Sad that I didn’t get to say goodbye, didn’t get to give him a good luck hug. I found comfort in the fact knowing that he was going to be in Maryland for the next few weeks on leave though. Not that I planned on seeing him but knowing that he wasn’t all that far gone.

Yesterday, April 7th, my sailor boarded a plan for the best adventure I could ever wish for him. He flew out to Washington state, across the country, to his new base and a lifetime of memories. He had told me awhile ago that he had no intention of coming back to the east coast, and quite frankly I don’t blame him. My first tinder date left for across the country and never looked back. I’m happy for him, don’t get me wrong, and we do still talk on the daily. I may have lost a tinder date but I gained a friend and he’s one of the best.

The moral of the story…don’t be afraid to meet your tinder dates (unless they’re super creepy). I took a chance and found some happiness, even if it was just for a night. Ryan changed my perspective on guys and gave me new hope for the future. You never know where you’re going to end up in life, maybe he’ll be back in CT or maybe I’ll end up in Seattle. Never the less, I took a leap of faith and it didn’t bite me in the ass. I miss him like crazy and wish I could have given him a goodbye hug but sometimes things don’t work out how we want. I wish him nothing but the best, I hope he’s safe out there fighting for our country, and I hope he finds the girl he looks at like he does chicken tenders :).

Fighting with your Best Friend — April 5, 2017

Fighting with your Best Friend

Can I just say that fighting with your best friend is the absolute worst? They’re supposed to be your ride or die, your go to person, the one you talk to about everything and then all of the sudden it all stops. How do you deal with it? How do you swallow your pride and forgive one another for what ever is the cause of your silence?

The thing is, no matter what you’re fighting about isn’t worth it. Remember that. Let me tell you a little story about me and my best friend Megan.

We’ve been best friends since we were 3 years old. We did everything together all through elementary and middle school. We went our separate ways in high school but we still talked every day. She went out of state for college but again, every single day we were talking. Finally we both graduated and she was moving back home for good! I was thrilled, it was going to be the two of us against the world again. Things started out great and we were seeing each other and catching up on everything. We made it a tradition to go out every Friday that I wasn’t working and be the best friends that we were. We would always go to BWW, the bartender knew us and it was a great time. Until it wasn’t. One weekend she decided she wanted to drive 40 minutes away to meet a guy on our Friday night traditions. This would be fine and dandy if she was able to drive, but she doesn’t so I would be the one driving almost an hour one way to be a 3rd wheel. I wasn’t happy about it. I yelled at her and told her I wouldn’t do it. I was the one who had to work the next morning and driving that far was going to get me nothing besides a drink, maybe. We didn’t talk for almost 2 weeks.

Finally I swallowed my pride. I apologized for freaking out and explained to her my side of it. I’m not a chauffer for her to go hook up with guys. I’m not going to always be her 3rd wheel and if she wants to do that she has to figure out how to get there on her own. I’m sad to say that even though things are getting better with us they’re still not 100% the same.. So how do we work at this? We keep fighting for our friendship. We don’t give up on one another.

No matter how big the blow up or how much you think it’s over and that’s it, you fight. Fight for your best friend because in the end they’re the one that’s going to be there for you. They’re your biggest fan, the one cheering you on the most, the one looking out for your best interest. Friends are forever, especially when they make it as long as Megan and I have been friends. You figure it out and you make it work.

Dealing with Anxiety — March 23, 2017

Dealing with Anxiety

I’m sure we’ve all been anxious and over emotional about things before, I know I sure have. Lately I’ve been feeling extremely anxious, stressed out, and not really sure what is going on with my life. Let me explain…

I feel like my life is at a complete standstill. I go to work to pay my bills and I occasionally go out and have fun. I feel like I’m in a rut and I don’t know how to combat it. I also have been struggling with everything with Tyler and what happened between us. When I think that I’m doing okay and getting past the hurt, I break down and cry. I know this is normal but it completely crushes me.

I want my life back. I miss everything. Living at home I’m struggling with, I miss having my own house that’s completely mine. I miss having someone to come home to every day. I miss feeling loved.

I’m not sure if this is all hitting me because my birthday is next week or what, but this isn’t how I pictured starting 25.

How I’m dealing with it is crying and talking to my best friends. Believe it or not, Zach has given me some of the best advice and I can’t thank him enough. He told me last night “You worked your ass off to become a nurse and guess what dumbass you’re a nurse! You don’t need a relationship to be happy, I hope you know that. Love yourself and the rest will fall into place.” Seriously, what guy says that?! He’s honestly the best but I’ll never tell him that to his face :p.

What he said though is the truth. Everyone needs to love themselves before they can let someone else in to love them. Try as we might we need to accept this for what it is. When we finally love ourselves the rest doesn’t matter.

Take a deep breath in and let it out. Let the anxiety drift away and know that in the end it’s going to all work out.

Music is Healing — March 19, 2017

Music is Healing

Have you ever had a song or a band that puts everything into perspective for you? Something that you can listen to over and over, never get sick of, and somehow it/they always find a way to hit home with you? That’s how Florida Georgia Line is for me.

Last weekend I went to their concert at the casino. This was my 3rd time seeing them and you would think that I would be sick of them by now, right? WRONG! I could see the same show 10 different times and I think the music would effect me just as much. I love that they have songs that are upbeat and get you moving, songs that get you thinking, and songs that give you hope.

As much of a super fan as I would like to consider myself, I haven’t had the chance to really listen to their new album until recently. I don’t know if I was worried it wouldn’t be as good or what but I finally bit the bullet when I was having a really down day and listened to it all. Let me tell you, their music always does it. They have a song called “Music is Healing” and it does exactly that. I don’t know what it is about the song but I always have so much hope when I listen to it. Hope that I’m going to figure things out, hope that everything that’s happened isn’t going to be what defines me, hope that things will change. The first time the song honestly brought me to tears. Maybe I was just being over emotional but I really think it was something more than that.

Anyways, I wanted to ease myself back into blogging. I know its been awhile but life tends to get in the way.

Let me know what songs or bands get you going. Also, let me know what you want me to write about. Sometimes I have stuff, sometimes not so much.

Freaking Out… — February 24, 2017

Freaking Out…

Just a little bit though, and all for good reasons. Things have shockingly been looking up for me lately. I’m not trying to jinx it so maybe talking about it her as opposed to out loud nothing will go wrong? Sure, I’ll stick with that.

First things first, I got promoted! That’s right, your girl is going to be full time starting April 9th! I’ll be a 36 hour RN working 3 12s a week as opposed to 32 hours working 4 8s. It’ll be a big adjustment but making more money and having more time off will be great for me. I’ll be able to take time to relax and enjoy life a little bit more.

Going along with that I get to go from working every other weekend to every 3rd. Since I’ve worked on all 3 of the weekend options I had a preference which weekend I wanted to be on. Never in a million years did I think that I’d get put on my favorite weekend. Low and behold my boss came to me yesterday and told me that I would be on the weekend that I loved! It honestly couldn’t get better. I love working weekends with this crew and it’s going to make my transition that much better.

Another exciting topic is I’M GOING TO PUNTA CANA!!!!! This summer I’m leaving the country with one of my best friends Sarah and we’re going to be somewhere on a beach sipping something strong. I literally could not be more excited than I am about this trip. I’m planning on doing a packing post as well as a review of the place that we stay. 100 days until we’re on a plane, but who’s counting :).

My birthday is coming up. The big 25, quarter of a century. I haven’t done something big that I planned for my birthday in a long as I can remember. Well this year Sarah and I are planning a big bash. We’re going to go out on the town while drinking and dancing the night away. I’m so excited to have a night all about me and celebrating with some of my closest friends.

Last MAJOR freak out topic is Pat. If you remember me writing a post about him going completely AWOL around New Year’s you know where we last stood in January. Welllllllll, we started talking again. Now let me set the record straight that I didn’t initiate it, sort of. I was on Bumble on Valentine’s Day laughing at all the pathetic profiles and swiping left. Little did I know that Mr. Pat’s profile would pop up. I swiped right for the hell of it. About an hour later I get a text message jokingly saying to stop matching with him. The conversation went on from there and we haven’t stopped talking since. Things are definitely different (I might write a post about it) but he’s still an amazing man and friend. We hung out for the first time since we started talking again last night and we picked up right where we left off. I can tell he’s got a lot on his mind and that he’s stressed but I’m not trying to push the issue. I’m just happy I have him back, even if it’s for a little bit. Might not be the way I want but I’ll take anything at this point.

So there’s a little update on me. Tell me about your freak out moments that have come up recently.

Story Time: My 1st Car Accident — February 21, 2017

Story Time: My 1st Car Accident

I’m back with another story time! This one I didn’t think was ever going to happen, but then again I’m 24 and think I’m pretty invincible. I’m here to tell you about my very first car accident.

I’ve had my license for over 7 years now and this accident just happened last week. I can proudly say that it wasn’t my fault at all, but let me rewind back to the beginning.

I was in a really good mood that day. I had been canceled the first 8 hours of my 12 hour shift and I was only going in for a easy peasy 4 hours. What could I possible be mad about, right? The shift ended and I was on my way home. It was the usual..music blasting, singing like a fool. I got off the highway on the same exit I always take. I got onto the street that I needed and there was a city bus stopped at its usual stop waiting to pick people up. Since there were cars coming from the other direction I wasn’t able to go around the bus so I was sitting there patiently waiting for the bus to start going again. I look into my rearview mirror and I see this car flying up the street. I kind of had a feeling that this was going to be it but I figured the driver would have enough common sense to see my break lights and slow the eff down. If you guess that she didn’t, you’re right! She slammed into my rear end like it was nobody’s business. My car, being the super trooper that it is, didn’t have a lot of visible damage thank god.

The lady was so rude about everything. Questioning why I wanted her information, questioning why I wanted a police report. Get it together lady you just slammed into my car. We waited for the police and her filed the report. She sped off while I tried to collect myself. My brother and mom can and met me while I was waiting for the cop and my brother drove home with me. To say I was shaken up is an understatement. The car had always been somewhere where I felt safe which is weird since it’s probably one of the most dangerous places. Never the less I was able to drive and I wasn’t hurt besides a sore back.

I’m not afraid to drive or anything but I am definitely even more aware of the people driving around me. I drive a little slower, take my time. I don’t text and drive (not that I ever did). It made me more appreciative of everything a little bit more.

I’m happy to say that the woman’s insurance is going to cover all the damages to my car and we’re already up to $580 plus a rental car. It’s bad to say that I’m slightly excited hoping for more money in damages just because the woman was such a jerk to me. She got a ticket for following too closely even though she’s trying to say she hit black ice. Get what you deserve lady!

So there it is. My 1st car accident. Share with me your stories, or give me other story suggestions!

Writer’s Block — February 13, 2017

Writer’s Block

Hey everyone,

Sorry its been a hot minute. I have an extreme case of writer’s block. I don’t know what it is. I can’t think of anything of interest lately. Nothing exciting has happened in my life lately, work is the same old. I can’t think of any tips or tricks that I can share.

If anyone who reads my nonsense wants to suggest what they want me to write about, I’m all ears. Reach out to me and let me know what you want to see!

Some Things No One Tells You.. — January 30, 2017

Some Things No One Tells You..

There’s many things that people tell you when you’re going through a break up. “It’s going to be fine”, “you’re better off”, “It gets easier as time goes on”. The list goes on and on, and a lot of it is true. What about the things that people don’t tell you though? Over the past 6 months I’ve been discovering things about my break up with Tyler that no one ever prepared me for. Here are some of the many things that no one told me about breakups.

  1. It may get easier but it’s still hard. This might be because I’m persistent on staying friends with Tyler. Like I’ve said many times before, he’s my best friend and has shared so much with me that to have him completely out of my life isn’t something I can imagine. Although it has gotten easier there are still days where it hurts, a ton.
  2. You’ll never forget the memories, the good or the bad. Obviously the good memories are something to look back on and be happy that you shared. The bad memories, however, can haunt you. No matter how hard I try I’ll never forget the conversation that Tyler and I had when we were officially ending things. I’ll never forget the look on his face when I left. I’ll never forget the car ride to my mom’s house and I was leaving everything I’d known behind. It takes a lot to not let these memories consume you. You need to remember that everything happened for a reason.
  3. The tiniest things can trigger a spiral of emotions. Two songs are the big culprit of this for me…”Middle of a Memory” by Cole Swindell and “Don’t Let Me Down” by Chainsmokers. The Cole Swindell song always reminds me of the feeling of being abandoned while I was supposed to be living the happiest time of my life. We were getting married in a few months, I had just graduated nursing school and passed the NCLEX. In the middle of those memories I was left and nothing will change that or make it an easier pill to swallow. The Chainsmokers song was constantly on when everything was going down. I feel like I was let down by the person who was supposed to be my person. Eating at the place where he proposed triggers me wanting to burst into tears because of how everything changed. There’s many more that I don’t even want to think of right now.
  4. You’ll still cry. There’s nothing wrong with it. It feels weird to cry around people when its been so long after the break up but believe me you’re not crazy for still crying, and don’t be ashamed to cry around people. There is no point in keeping it all to yourself. Your support people will still be there, trust me.
  5. Going out will feel weird. Whether it’s a date or out with your friends it’ll feel weird. You spent X amount of years going out with that one person. It’s difficult at first but you need to get back out there and start enjoying yourself. Take a deep breath and leap.

Those are just some of the numerous things that no one told me after my breakup. If you’re feeling these things, or anything, just remember that you’re not alone and you’re not crazy. Everyone grieves differently. Be strong and talk to people!

6 Months as a Practicing RN — January 19, 2017

6 Months as a Practicing RN

Holy crap! I can’t believe that today marks 6 months of being a practicing RN! It has been the craziest, most surreal time of my life and I can honestly say that I am so happy with my career choice.

Being a nurse has been the most challenging time in my life. There are days where I feel like I am the worst nurse ever and that everything is going wrong. These days I really struggle with. I’ve learned to turn to my coworkers (who usually are having just as bad of a day) and breathe. We’re constantly reminding one another to take deep breaths and that if there’s anything we can do to help we’re there. This is the most important thing. Working with the team that I do has been a lifesaver. I trust almost all of them and feel like I can go to them for anything. They’ve welcomed me with open arms and have taken me under their wing to help me become the best nurse I can be. I love my North 8 girls more than I ever thought possible.

Being a nurse has been the most rewarding time of my life. The good days definitely make the bad days worth while. When a patient tells me that I’ve made their day or when they ask to have me as their nurse the next day makes me smile. When a patient gives me a big hug on day of discharge I melt. Watching someone progress from extremely sick to stable enough to go home is awe inspiring and knowing you played a part in getting them there is the best feeling. I wouldn’t trade these moments for anything.

My advice for any new nurse (and don’t get me wrong, I’m still very new) is to stick it out. There are days that you’ll hate it, there are days that you’ll love it. Take everything in, ask questions and if you still don’t understand it ask the question again. Try and get as many opportunities to have hands on experiences. Nothing you did in the skills lab at school is how it is in the real world with real people and real feelings and emotions. The first 6 months I’ve learned so much and there is still so much for me to learn. I try and make it a goal to learn something new every day. Know that you’re going to make mistakes. Hopefully there are not life threatening. Use these mistakes as learning experiences. Despite being a nurse you’re a human being first.

These 6 months have been life changing. I can’t wait to see where the next part of the year takes me. I love the floor I work on, I love my coworkers, and I love my career choice. Find something you love and it’ll be the most rewarding job out there.

 

Easy Peasy Couponing — January 13, 2017

Easy Peasy Couponing

Hey everyone!

Awhile ago I wrote a post about how I’m saving money after college. One of the ways I use is using coupons. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not a crazy coupon lady. I don’t have a giant binder with thousands of coupons and spending no money at all on anything (there is nothing wrong with these people either!) I just don’t have the time or patience for that, and honestly, it wouldn’t work for me. A lot of coupons that I find are things that I would never buy and I’m not going to clip a coupon for something to save money but I know I won’t use, ever. Or on the flip side I will use it but you need to buy 5 of the items to save a dollar. That’s not worth it to me either.

I’m not a professional at this at all but I have come up with a system that works for me that I thought I would share with you. If you have any suggestions on how I can tweak it let me know in the comments, or tell me what you do and maybe I’ll adapt it in some way!

I bought a coupon holder. I know, I know some of you might be thinking it’s the first step to the coupon binder but no, it’s just so that the coupons aren’t falling all over my bag.

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I’ve broken the compartments that work best for me: breakfast, canned, condiments, dairy, drinks, frozen, fruits and veggies, home items, meat, personal items, snacks, and specific stores. The specific stores is for things like bath and body works, bed bath and beyond…stores that constantly send me coupons that I sometimes use and are nice to have. Those are paper clipped together in the order that they expire so that I can stay on top of them.

I typically do most of my shopping at Target. When I’m getting ready to go shopping I sit down with my coupon holder and Cartwheel app. I sit down with a notebook and write down the things I know I need. I then go through my coupons and write out if I have one for that item. Then I go through the Cartwheel app to see if what I need is available for additional discount through there. It works for me. I’m not saving hundreds but where I am right now in my life every little bit counts. I have no problem buying store brand if it’ll save me some money and it is nearly the same product as the name brand. My mom and brother have an issue with that but they’re slowly starting to see my side of it.

Like I said, my process isn’t perfect but it works for me. Will I use this same method the rest of my life? Who knows. I do know that while I’m living at home and paying off my student loans that this is what I will be doing. I might tweak it as I continue to grow up. Let me know if you want to know updates if anything changes.

So tell me what works for you. Are you a couponer? Are you an extreme couponer? I’m starting to really get into this and I want to hear other’s stories and tips.